I came across a quote from the Dao Te Ching (道德經) today.
"Continuing to fill a pail after it is full the water will be wasted. Continuing to grind an axe after it is sharp will soon wear it away. Who can protect a public hall crowded with gold and jewels? The pride of wealth and position brings about their own misfortune." Chapter 9.
持而盈之，不如其已﹔揣而銳之，不可長保。金玉滿堂，莫之能守; 富貴 而驕，自遺其咎。功遂身退，天之道。 道德經 第九章 運夷
I often talk about moderation and generally live by it. I happen to find this quote quite apt since I had this thought yesterday. Keeping up and attaining status can be hurtful to one's mind and health. I learned the hard way earlier this year when I was upset over not winning any medals. For a long time, I was very angry with myself, but I did not see that it was my time. There was no pointing blaming anybody, I just have to work harder and one day my time will come. Yesterday, I saw the futility of my plans. I see other people and I see a dead end road. Other people have said this, but perhaps it was my time to understand it.
Neither Daoism or Buddhism are against ambition, but actually for it. The balance has to be something you do that you enjoy, be profitable and in accordance to the Dao. I am not without ambition, but I need to do it a different way, my way. I might not know what that is, but a solution will present itself when the time comes.